Sunday, April 15, 2007
Okay this is my last post here. Even though not many of my friends will be able to read this, but I just wanted to recount my whole time here at -JUSTBEINGMYSELF, blogging, crapping, and enjoying myself.
Reading back on my posts from last year, I realise how much I've grown as a person. I've become more matured, and become more vocal in my blog. Anyway, I dont really care about what others think or say of my blog and call me a loser. It's simple dealing with these kind of people. Ban, report spam, delete. Easy! My blog is written for my own personal memories and to share what's in my life with my friends. Yes, I do have friends.
The first few months of me starting this blog were just filled with my endless crapping and randomness. Well everyone goes through a period of life where they dont really think much about life and just live it! I guess I was just that happy-go-lucky Sec 2 girl who harboured BIG dreams! And I wasnt emo at that time lah. XD I'm still not that emo now. I'm growing up.
Then after that, I started to take more notice of what was happening around me... I started becoming more emotional, and abit more rational too. I marvelled at the mysteries of life, how beautiful the world is, and began to realise that I had been living in my own world for the past 13 years. I began to wake up to the facts of reality.
I remember what Panshin told me in my birthday letter, "Fourteen is a time where you learn alot." This is kind of true. I've learnt much in these seven months of being fourteen, and I'm looking forward to being fifteen. Yeah.
So that's all for my journey growing up at -JUSTBEINGMYSELF. I guess I'll be growing up and learning even more in my new journey...
Relink!
http://xanga.com/menomosso/Signing off for the last time ever,
Melody
melodycopyrighted
3:52 AM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Okay. Whatever that you see here from the next paragraph onwards is meant for only one person, but yes, you people can read it too if you want.
_____, I'm really really very irritated by your behaviour, blog posts and all. I really dont understand why these kind of words would come out of your mouth. Although I havent seen you in a long time, but I'm still pretty sure that I love you all the same and treat you like a bestie, a sister. I can feel the distance between the both of us increasing as the days go by.
Why cant you understand that there are so many people that you can call, talk to in your times of need? When you are depressed, you always forget that there is this group of friends that will never pang seh you, no matter how long you've disappeared from church. You also forget that God is always there for you, and ultimately you decide whether you want Him in your life or not. I really cannot believe that you are at this stage of life now.
I never opposed to your relationships, but I never encouraged and approved of them either. As your friend, I believe I do have the right to understand you, but not approve of what you do. In actual fact, I didnt approve because I was afraid and apprehensive that you would end up in exactly this stage that you are in now. This horrible pathetic stage. I believe that healthy BGRs should only happen when you are mentally and emotionally mature enough, and I thought you had the same thoughts as me too. Until that day that I found out you had a bf.
I am getting so frustrated that I cant concentrate on my jian bao. But who cares. I need to vent.
Maybe it's due to your rebelling that you decided to do this. I agree that your parents arent exactly the best ones that you can have, but you as a daughter must learn to appreciate them. I know I should be practising what I preach, and the thing is, I'm trying to. When I saw photos of you two together in the beginning, I was pretty convinced that you were happy the way you were then. But now, I really regret putting most of my trust in that guy.
Oh man, I'm becoming more like a mother hen. But you dont know how worried I get when I read your blog. Your posts are full of depressing words that I dont even want to read. You're just ruining your life like this. Counting the number of days that he has left you? That is maybe one of the most childish things that is in my dictionary. Why not you count the number of friends you have that actually love you like you're our one and only? Why not you think of how many people that treat you like you're special? Why not you count how many days there are to the next time you see us? Why not?
If you do really read this, I suggest that you go and reflect. I highly encourage you to come back to church. This is where all your friends are. This is where all the love is. We all love you like there's nothing else to love. Really.
See the beautiful night sky? It's filled with our never-ending love for you. God loves you even more than what the universe could hold. <333
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On a brighter and lighter note, I realised my blogskin is really darn pink! I shall go look for a NOT SO PINK one! XD
melodycopyrighted
6:23 AM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Okay! I came back from SLC yesterday... But I'm only blogging today cos I slept FIFTEEN HOURS! XD Yes. That is true. =D I broke my own record haha. So anyway I shall start on my recount of SLC!
On the first day there (Friday), I was pretty excited lah. Cos well the Camp Chief was really cool and my trainer (OP!) was fun haha! Yep so had team bonding first! Group 21 is officially THE BOMB! (BOOM!) So we were trying to balance on that big metal platform? Yep and I think our record of 8 seconds was pretty okay... I mean it's good for first timers! But I enjoyed the one on the tree trunk more cos we had to really trust Claire and Ethel for support! Aiyah it was just FUN!
Then we had Challenge Valley! Which was quite good! I enjoyed the sliding into the milo pool! Cos yeah it's fun lah! And Cal and me found out that Nanxuezhang with her specs off and hair plastered to her head looks like SUN XIEZHI! >.< The sliding down was pretty fun... Although I got some mud and sand and whatever into my nose. (I just cleared it yesterday night when I bathed) But then Ger didnt get to experience it. AWW. Nevermind! I played everything just for her! XD
Then had rafting which was fun too! XD I like rafting. Especially the sensation of being pulled back to shore! YAY. The food there was quite okay. At least it made us FOOD JUNKIES full. Really. Then had this night hike which actually wasnt really scary or what. Not shiok at all. BOO. Song session was fun! All of us were going damn high. XD
SHOWER. Oh yes! The stream of the shower I got on the first day was like so darn small and irritating! Didnt really manage to wash myself that cleanly. Nevermind. Made up for it on the second day cos the stream of the shower was much much better! XD But the lousy toilet facilities made my skin irritation (Axema?) worse. BOO.
The next day! (Saturday) Me and Calista woke the HUT 16 people up! WHOO HOO. We were like BANGBANGBANG on the door and going, "Wake up people!" And the 16 people started complaining. =D But they did get up eventually! And I love them lah. <3 Yep after the NASI LEMAK breakfast we had KAYAKING!
Kayaking was oh so darn fun! MEL LOVES KAYAKING! But my triceps are like suan cos of the incessant hard paddling! Which is also fun haha! Okay then had Rock climbing! Esther and Tessa (My two fellow CUCUMBERS!) are so darn good at it! So MAN! XD Then had Abseiling and Zipline! And I overcomed my fear of heights cos of Abseiling... I feel so darn brave now! Abseiling is maybe one of my best memories about this camp! XD
After lunch had CRC! Once again, THREEWISDOM rocks cos almost all of us did at least one of the three! XD Then had ARCHERY! Ohman I love archery so much too! I like to PEI YANG GAN QING with the board haha! I think that is like so fun! XD Then prepared for Campfire!
Dinner. Then CAMPFIRE! The whole YELLOWBADGE got so darn high! And I still have Zhuwei's "I'm the lampost!" running in my head. XD And Josy won the Yellowbadgestnicks idol! YAY. Threewisdom! <33 Had supper... Then showered... Then slept. XD
The next day had breakfast and area cleaning... Then had SARIMBUN HIKE AND OUTDOOR COOKING! It was like fun! Cos I got TANNED! Mel likes being tanned! XD Then went back to school loh. XD
So yep I watched HANAKIMI as soon as I got home... Then bathed a FORTYFIVEMINUTE shower! And slept. Until this morning. XD
OH YES. My Nanxuezhang is becoming more and more like LIANGSINAN from Hanakimi! XD Adee Cal Ger agree with me!
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I will miss the times when we cheered each other on for everything!I will miss the times when we worked together as a team!I will miss the times when we bonded like siao!I will miss the times when we sang loudly and cheered!I will miss the times when we got so amused by the trainers!I will miss the times when we complained about the showers!I will miss the times when we mass stripped!I will miss the times when we banged on each other's hut doors!I will miss the times when we kayaked together and tried to keep in time!I will miss the times when we climbed the rock wall and cheered for each other!I will miss the times when we overcomed our fears of heights and abseiled!I will miss the times when we ate together and talked about everything!I will miss the times when we arched together and bullied the trainer!I will miss the times when we all got high together during the campfire!I will miss the times when we sang to keep ourselves entertained!I will miss the times when we cooked our own food outdoors!I will miss the times when we cheered and booed OP!I will miss the times when we sipped milo and chatted!I LOVE THREE WISDOM!I LOVE THE BOMB!I LOVE GER!I LOVE CAL!I LOVE NANXUEZHANG!I LOVE ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS!I LOVE STUDENT LEADERSHIP CAMP!----
ST NICKS OI!
OI!
OKAY!
ALRIGHT!
WELL DONE!
EXCELLENT!
mm hmm! goes the little green frog one day!
mm hmm! goes the little green frog!
mm hmm! goes the little green frog one day!
and they all go mm hmm ahhh!
and they all go SHALALALALA!
SHALALALALA!
SHALALALALA!
and they all go SHALALALALA!
and they all go mm hmm ahhh!
how are we feeling?!
kedeba!
kedebu!
kedeba!
kedebu!
I FEEL GOOD!
NANANANANA!
melodycopyrighted
8:26 PM
Monday, February 19, 2007
Okay hello all! Firstly I wanna wish everyone HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! Gong xi fa cai! Wan shi ru yi!
Got quite alot yesterday... The YEARLY ANGBAO INCOME! Haha. Yeah I'm expecting more next week from church... Cos yesterday is only family one! So not much lah... My family not so rich, and not so big also! But considered okay le lah! Dun ask how much! It's private and confidential!
Anyway, I saw my maternal cousins and was like pretty shocked-cum-surprised by how much they have matured. Like one is only one year older, but he's like 170 plus alreadyyyyy!!! So tall. Guys lah. And my mum was like teasing one of them who is two years younger than me, saying that is eyes very MESMERISING. Then this conversation ensued!
Mum: Eh, Mel, Fahrenheit.Me: Huh? What do you mean?Mum: Don't you think he looks like one of those guys in Fahrenheit?Me: NO! -Shakes head vigorously-Mum: Aiyah! He was very nice features! See see see!Me: Hmm I agree! -Turns to cousin- Hello! Wei lai de ou xiang! Xin jia po de jiao ao!Cousin: -Scratches head shyly-But hor! Really lah, his yan shen very dian! Eyes super big! =D
I should like take a picture with that cousin that is one year elder than me and tell people he's my boyfriend! (And he can tell people I'm his girlfriend too...) Cos we realised that we look quite good together! Kidding lah. ((:
I wasnt really surprised by my paternal cousins cos I see them more often, and I'm closer to them also! We were all staring at the TV in my mama's house! We bond through TV watching! =D
Overall, the CNY was fun lah! Niceee!
And now right, I'm like officially BORED cos there's no one I can talk to!
I havent been chatting, crapping, going high since Friday night!
Cannot take it le lahhhhh!
why cannot?
melodycopyrighted
6:29 AM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
I'm very happy now! Cos today was like one of the best VDays in my life! (Er. I've only celebrated three so far.) I really love all my friends! They're sweeeet! <3
So now I shall start thanking people!
THANK YOU:
Ger - For that bookmark? And that short yet sweet message! You're my valentine too!
Em - For the chocolates!
Zhuwei - For the Ferrero Rocher!
Joelle - For that piece of transparency! I'll continue feeding you with bread okay?
Cal - For that heart! With the sweet note on it! And the sweets!
Abby - For that Fahrenheit poster! And the song dedication - Zhao Xing Fu Gei Ni!
Panpan - For the sweet note and lollipop!
Nanxuezhang - For that nice note! And the gummies!
Christabel - For the twisties and lollipop!
Calista - For the grape thingy!
Ruijuan - For the marmee!
Eunice - For the sweets and chocolate? I forgot le.
Yanzhu - For the note and Hersheys!
Jess Ling - For the cola sweet and chocolate!
Charlyne - For the giant stick? Havent opened it up to see what it is.
Elysia - For the note and Ferrero!
Mr Hoo - For the nice chocolates!
Mr Sundram - For the merci chocolates!
Everyone else who gave me something - For all the fruit and mint pluses, Hershey's, gummies, M&M's, timeouts, ferreroes! The straw heart! (Forgot who) The rose? (Forgot who also) And that anonymous person who gave me a COOKIE... -Wonders who she is-
EVERYONE - For making my day so fun and happy and high! And for trying to make me get diabeties and get fat! -Sticks out tongue-
Yep. So I think that's all... I might get more tomoro!
Whoever that I owe prezzie... Sorry okay! I try by tomoro! Remind me!
Okay! I'm going out with my mummy to get stuff for CNY and VDay prezzies too!
BYEBYE! XDD
never wanna live life without ALL of you! <333
love you people! <333
three wisdom rocks! <333
GEMZ rocks! <333
QIU ZU rocks! <333
melodycopyrighted
12:11 AM
Friday, February 09, 2007
CHIJ ST. NICHOLAS GIRLS' SCHOOL!
TOP FOR 2006 O LEVELS!
EESH! Am superbly exhilarated now! SNGS is like in a whole BUZZ! Since yesterday!
I positively absolutely love my 06 grey badge seniors!
THEY ROCK!
Especially Phyllinda, Shumin and Vanessa!
This great news means alot of things!
ONE: We can hold our heads high in front of CEDARIANS!
TWO: We have proved ourselves worthy of it!
THREE: We have kicked CEDAR tkgs ANDERSON dunman down!
FOUR: The place in BAND ONE is secured!
FIVE: We most likely will get a day off!
SIX: The stress is on the PERFORMING ARTS now!
symphonicband. chineseorchestra. stringorchestra. choir. chinesedance. moderndance. eldds.
These seven shall bring glory to SNGS once again!
Let's strive for GOLD together!
festival prelude! sunrise! let's rock together!
the most important part of you will always be what's inside.
melodycopyrighted
6:30 PM
Monday, January 29, 2007
I have a SERIOUS HAPPINESS AND HIGHNESS HANGOVER from yesterday! Those Fahrenheit fans will know... Even Miss Lee knows who's fei lun hai leh!!! Not bad hor!
So like early in the morning Cal woke me up with her sms and I woke Em up with my call. And we decided to leave earlier cos apparently the situation there was VERY FULL already! And very full as in all the way to the carpark okay! Yep so met Cal at AMK mrt then met Em Mingxiu and Ruijuan at Jurong East mrt. And Zhuwei could come! Like so ling shi!
Then we started debating/quarelling with the head of the Security cos he was like darn unreasonable. But in the end we kind of like gave up but stayed irritated. Shall not give you the gory details. And Cal is a good debater! Really.
About around 5pm we started gathering at the place where Fahrenheit was going to enter from... Then waited until 6pm! THEN THEY ARRIVED!!! And we started screaming! This was when my darling friends realised that Calvin is actually shuai! In person! But to tell the truth, other than only finding he's a little more shuai in person, I didnt really think got much difference leh. Maybe it's cos I'm already in love with him! =D
So me Cal Em Abigail made our way back to our queue, squeezing through the crowd lah! Blame Zhuwei Ruijuan Mingxiu for getting the first hundred places. HMPH. Okay lah we not so xiao qi de! Got back to our bags! And started waiting for the queue to move!
I shall not give you the details of the waiting. They're too much to explain. REALLY. But once again we debated with the Security.
As we were getting close to the stage, we kept shouting the names of Fahrenheit haha! Then Dadong and Calvin keep waving at us!!! And I think I melted alot of times... And here the embarrassing stuff begins!!! I shall only tell my part... So as to not offend other people...
I went onstage! And then Chun sign, shake my hand, Arron sign, shake my hand... Dun really remember though... At Dadong there, I was like gushing alot of stuff lah! Er something like, "Wo zhen de hao xi huan ni! Xin ku ni men le!" Then I bei Dadong dian dao! BUT! The best is yet to come!
CALVIN shook my hand. Actually not really shake, like HOLD. His hand so big okay (Compared to mine at least)! And so warm! I didnt want to let go... And I think I didnt really let go too cos it was Em who was behind me! And she doesnt really like Calvin as much as I do! So he gazed into my eyes and smiled, and I gazed into his eyes and smiled. And I went, "Ni zhen de hao shuai oh!" And he replied IN ENGLISH, "Thank you!" I think he was happy too! Cos Abigail kind of broke his heart? And I think I made it come back together again!
Then! I waited for Em to shake finish, then we proceeded down the stage. COMPLETELY FORGETTING ABOUT OUR LYRICS BOOKS! But the DJ was like, "Ni men hai mei you na ge ci ben leh!" Then we remembered and went back to take. And Calvin was like laughing at us lah! SO MALU!!!
So that's like the gist of what happened yesterday... And now Zhuwei has this idea of setting up a St Nicks Fahrenheit Fanclub! Cos we harbour a dream that they will come our school! And abit. About HALF THE SCHOOL likes Fahrenheit! They should really come for xiao yuan yan chang hui!
WHOO FAHRENHEIT ROCKS!!! WO HUI YONG YUAN AI ZHE NI MEN DE!!! WO YAO CALVIN CHEN YI RU LAH!!! <33
Abigail! You still have to apologise on his blog okay. Go apologise for offending him!
melodycopyrighted
5:36 AM
